最近觉得自己变了，我到底是谁？为什么我感觉到现在的自己和以前得自己变得不一样了？现在的我是一个很令人讨厌的我。现在的我很爱乱发脾气，。真的很令人讨厌。我是不是应该反省下呢？如果我再这样下去，我很确定身边的人会一个一个离我而去。
我不是不要改变而是我自己都不清楚问题出现在哪，有谁可以告诉我？我真的很想知道。
现在的我很自以为是，以为自己很厉害，但是自己根本就一点也不厉害。自己以为自己做的东西一定是对的，可是自己以为是对的东西其实是错的。
我到底是怎么了？为什么那么骄傲？为什么那么自大？为什么那么串？为什么那么不负责任？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？
人是会变的，但我已经变到不好的哪一方面去了。我是时候醒了，告诉自己不能在那样了。我要变去好的那一方面，我不能再那么自私了。
Thursday 8 March 2012
Sunday 8 January 2012
The things you promised me......................it gone
I am so stupid, keep waiting on it. 3 months already past, when I will wake up?
I keep waiting on it even I know what will happen on the end. So I say I am stupid right now.
People ask me to forget you. Forget you? It is not that easy for me. Who ask you promised me such that much things? Now I should say "padan muka" to myself or to you? I think maybe more to myself. 女人善变？对。但男人也是善变的，they just use the another way to show it out.
So now I still want to wait for you? or? who can tell me? Just one thing can stop my mind think about this. That is work. I work from Monday until Saturday, in this six days sure I won't think about this. But today is Sunday,see....I keep thinking about this.
So I want my Sunday also busy busy busy busy busy busy so I won't think about it. But sometime before I sleep I will think about it also. Wah.....what can I do la?
Lesson learn " Don't easily promise something if you can't make it "
Now I feel this is not myself. When I can become myself back?
You are not my boyfriend but the way I treat you, you are the first person.
I miss you.
I keep waiting on it even I know what will happen on the end. So I say I am stupid right now.
People ask me to forget you. Forget you? It is not that easy for me. Who ask you promised me such that much things? Now I should say "padan muka" to myself or to you? I think maybe more to myself. 女人善变？对。但男人也是善变的，they just use the another way to show it out.
So now I still want to wait for you? or? who can tell me? Just one thing can stop my mind think about this. That is work. I work from Monday until Saturday, in this six days sure I won't think about this. But today is Sunday,see....I keep thinking about this.
So I want my Sunday also busy busy busy busy busy busy so I won't think about it. But sometime before I sleep I will think about it also. Wah.....what can I do la?
Lesson learn " Don't easily promise something if you can't make it "
Now I feel this is not myself. When I can become myself back?
You are not my boyfriend but the way I treat you, you are the first person.
I miss you.
Wednesday 28 December 2011
I miss my school
So fast.....Everything was very fast. I spent 5 years in SMK Dengkil. Now I had finished my SPM and means that I already finished my secondary school life. But.......I miss my school life so much.... =(
No many people around me were talking about all open school stuff la. Then I told my mum, "maaa, gonna open school liao..." Mum answered me "You finished your secondary school liao laaa... " Yeah I knew it, but i just feel that I want go to school laaaa...
Until today I had work only for 5 days. This morning mum told me that all the Form 1 student need go to school for register and this make me feel I want go to my school laaa...
I found out that go to school is better when you go for work...
Why people always like this? When we still study then always say I wanna go to work; when we already start to work then sure will say I wanna back to school...
I miss my classmate now. I miss my teachers now. I miss all the crazy time and crazy thing we did together. We cry together. We laugh together. We dance together. We sing together. We hug each other and cry. I miss all the things we did together. Guys..I miss you all so much.. Angry birdssss =(
No many people around me were talking about all open school stuff la. Then I told my mum, "maaa, gonna open school liao..." Mum answered me "You finished your secondary school liao laaa... " Yeah I knew it, but i just feel that I want go to school laaaa...
Until today I had work only for 5 days. This morning mum told me that all the Form 1 student need go to school for register and this make me feel I want go to my school laaa...
I found out that go to school is better when you go for work...
Why people always like this? When we still study then always say I wanna go to work; when we already start to work then sure will say I wanna back to school...
I miss my classmate now. I miss my teachers now. I miss all the crazy time and crazy thing we did together. We cry together. We laugh together. We dance together. We sing together. We hug each other and cry. I miss all the things we did together. Guys..I miss you all so much.. Angry birdssss =(
Sunday 25 December 2011
Sunway Pyramid AGAIN
24/12/2011 went Sunway Pyramid.
25/12/2011 also went Sunway Pyramid, but with different people, but all is my relative. =D
Today went there with two aunties. My second mum (one of my aunties) bought me a beg. Pinky pinky, I like it. Yeah. Hehehe
Second mum fetch me go Sunway around 8.00+am and we reached there around 8.50am. Wah!!! So early leh, what can we do there? Sunway only open around 10 am mah. Then we sit in the car and chit chat lo. Okay I laugh too KUAT and I can feel it almost all the parking area can hear my voice. Hahaha :P
Around 9.30am we go out from the car then went into the shopping mall lo. Finally got people offer for me to take pictures for me. Hahahahaha
Here is it
After that we went and met the another my aunty. Then three of us none stop shopping. One word = tired
But anyway I enjoyed it can finally I can bought something laaaa. Hahaha
Okay I think that is enough and my legs need rest. Of course me also need rest laaaa. =D
25/12/2011 also went Sunway Pyramid, but with different people, but all is my relative. =D
Today went there with two aunties. My second mum (one of my aunties) bought me a beg. Pinky pinky, I like it. Yeah. Hehehe
Second mum fetch me go Sunway around 8.00+am and we reached there around 8.50am. Wah!!! So early leh, what can we do there? Sunway only open around 10 am mah. Then we sit in the car and chit chat lo. Okay I laugh too KUAT and I can feel it almost all the parking area can hear my voice. Hahaha :P
Around 9.30am we go out from the car then went into the shopping mall lo. Finally got people offer for me to take pictures for me. Hahahahaha
Here is it
But anyway I enjoyed it can finally I can bought something laaaa. Hahaha
Okay I think that is enough and my legs need rest. Of course me also need rest laaaa. =D
Saturday 24 December 2011
Ice skating
Yeah!!! Finally today we went for ice skating. We??? Me and my boy friend??? Haha. For sure not la. I went with my cousins. This was the second time. I should say congratulation to myself and Ian because "kami tak ada jatuh". Hahaha. So happy. *because first time I fall down around 20+ times. Very very very pain but I still want continue it. Thanks God that for my second time, I got no fall down. But I learnt something. You will know how to skate after you fall down. :)
I am very enjoyed for this time and thanks Ian for holding me at first. But i can sure if one of us fall down the other will be fall down also.
After that we went for lunch at Pizza Hut. Ian told me that all the waiters have BIG smile and he like it. Hahaha. I give you a BIG smile here =D
I keep asking to take some photos but.............the owner of the camera is Ian Yong, and he don't like to take photos that got people inside the photo. Okay, then I can't show any photos here.
After lunch, is time to play!!! Thanks Ian again. Hahaha. Played many games but all shoot shoot shoot.
After that we went back. That's enough for today. Actually for me is not really enough laaa. I want shopping :P
Anyway thanks Chee Yuan to fetch us go there, if not this blog will not be here. =D
I am very enjoyed for this time and thanks Ian for holding me at first. But i can sure if one of us fall down the other will be fall down also.
After that we went for lunch at Pizza Hut. Ian told me that all the waiters have BIG smile and he like it. Hahaha. I give you a BIG smile here =D
I keep asking to take some photos but.............the owner of the camera is Ian Yong, and he don't like to take photos that got people inside the photo. Okay, then I can't show any photos here.
After lunch, is time to play!!! Thanks Ian again. Hahaha. Played many games but all shoot shoot shoot.
After that we went back. That's enough for today. Actually for me is not really enough laaa. I want shopping :P
Anyway thanks Chee Yuan to fetch us go there, if not this blog will not be here. =D
Sunday 18 December 2011
Cousin's Wedding
Everybody get married. When is my turn? Hahaha. I don't know. Many of my cousins get married because they are elder than me and I am the youngest at my father side. Haha.
Having fun yesterday and today because met many my cousins from Klang. Erm...something funny is.............my cousins like to compare me and one of my cousin's daughter. Our face really look the same, like twins. And both of us are the same age. Haha. I scared when met with her because it just look like I am watching and talking to myself. Few of my cousins their age are around 30++ or 40+ but i still got the same topic can chat with them. Haha. Because I am too mature or they are still young? Nobody know it. :P
So tomorrow I will attend my cousin's wedding. How many wedding I attend? Actually just one wedding, the same person. Haha. But I go for three days.
Okay this few days really very busy. Class, buffet, wedding lunch, birthday party and so on.
Oh ya. Today I met my Nilam's friend at Bangi there, She was attend for the 6 hours class. Never think that I will meet my Nilam's friends. But happy to meet her today, Roshinee. Chat with her for a while during out rest time.
Okay I mix many things in this post. This call rojak. :D
Having fun yesterday and today because met many my cousins from Klang. Erm...something funny is.............my cousins like to compare me and one of my cousin's daughter. Our face really look the same, like twins. And both of us are the same age. Haha. I scared when met with her because it just look like I am watching and talking to myself. Few of my cousins their age are around 30++ or 40+ but i still got the same topic can chat with them. Haha. Because I am too mature or they are still young? Nobody know it. :P
So tomorrow I will attend my cousin's wedding. How many wedding I attend? Actually just one wedding, the same person. Haha. But I go for three days.
Okay this few days really very busy. Class, buffet, wedding lunch, birthday party and so on.
Oh ya. Today I met my Nilam's friend at Bangi there, She was attend for the 6 hours class. Never think that I will meet my Nilam's friends. But happy to meet her today, Roshinee. Chat with her for a while during out rest time.
Okay I mix many things in this post. This call rojak. :D
Friday 16 December 2011
A Day With The Green Shirt
As a starter for my blog, I would like to share some story. Yesterday I was hang out with my classmate and thanks to Sir Thambirajah because he had sent the t-shirt the day before our outing day. Yeah, finally we can wear the same shirt and hang out together. Everyone was so excited and crazy. Crazy at the bus stop, crazy at Alamanda and so on.
We had the movie- Mission Impossible. Quite nice this movie. After movie then we took our lunch. Thanks the handsome boy and pretty girl- Chin Sheng and Alia Samad. Then we planned for a bowling game. Suddenly we met Pn.Azian so we cancel the game and had a drink with teacher. Fuiyoh, Starbucks. Not that cheap ya.It costs around RMXX for 13 persons. Haha, just make it as secret. :)
After that, they planned to back but I am not followed them to go back. Because I want to spend some time with Sofea them. Yes, finally I can hang with them even just for a while.
After that,took bus and went back.
Just a simple story.
We had the movie- Mission Impossible. Quite nice this movie. After movie then we took our lunch. Thanks the handsome boy and pretty girl- Chin Sheng and Alia Samad. Then we planned for a bowling game. Suddenly we met Pn.Azian so we cancel the game and had a drink with teacher. Fuiyoh, Starbucks. Not that cheap ya.It costs around RMXX for 13 persons. Haha, just make it as secret. :)
After that, they planned to back but I am not followed them to go back. Because I want to spend some time with Sofea them. Yes, finally I can hang with them even just for a while.
After that,took bus and went back.
Just a simple story.
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